Afternon Appetizer; Hope & Glory Restored

Afternon Appetizer; Hope & Glory Restored

Over the past couple of days, I felt a sense of sadness, grief, & anger.  This coupled with the holidays and a need to belong made me hopeless.

To the naked eye my situation is ideal.  I have my health, 3 beautiful boys, a prominent job, and excellent benefits. But, on the inside I still desire more.  More from my family, friends, God, and marriage.

On the way to church I let out all my frustrations to my dear friend kiki.  She informed me she understood but also to move on and remain grateful for what I did have and what God was doing.  As she started naming my blessings, I marvelled at the fact that while I am going thru deep despair, God is overflowing me with His blessings and favor.  She reminded me that to move on is to focus on those things and be grateful.

I knew that call was heavensent but when I entered into church the preacher spoke on Romans.  God restoring Hope….

God spoke to me in 2 distinct ways from 2 different people with the same message.  Remain hopeful in your circumstances in ME AND U WILL BE BLESSED!!!!

To those who have lost hope, take inventory of the blessings you have and you too will see that your situation may not be ideal, but God is still in the blessing business.



Afternoon Appetizer; Mental Torment

And set your minds and keep them set on what is above (the higher things), not on the things that are on earth. (Colossians 3:2 AMP)

This morning, along with other days, I have been hit with the plague of mental torment.  I have allowed the devil to play thoughts, scenes, and etc in my mind, that at times caused me to be emotionally drained and sprained.

From the fear of losing my newfound job, to my husbands betrayal and his mistress.

These tactics are satans tricks for discouragement.  He uses these not only to distract us but to make us less useful and resourceful.  These times he binds our mines with foolishness can be used for our production of services to and for God.

In other words, he wants to keep us from our destiny.

 I am the first to admit that dealing with certain circumstances, its hard not to think about them, and even harder not to talk about them.  I want to encourage you because there is hope.

I have recieved alot of healing from this bondage by simply replacing my thought process with something else Godly or positive.  You see, its  not enough to just cast the thought down, you have to replace it.  Because if the devil can get a grip on your mind, the rest will follow.  I havent done my affirmations in days but this skill helps me replace those damaging thoughts.  Damaging to me and my health and ultimately, my healing process.

I believe, if we tell people how not to think of something, AND how to replace those thoughts more change will occur.  Many times people have told me dont think like that or talk  like that.  But never shared with me exactly what to do in order to get those thoughts out of my mind permanently.

There is a war going on overr your mind.  The mind and tongue are very powerful tools because where ever they go the rest will follow.



Afternoon Appetizer;Change

Ive been missing in actions since I started a new position.  Sorry you guys..

I have been battling these feelings.  Feelings derived fro CHANGE.  The fear of change, the fear of the unknown, and just not understanding the change goong on within.

Let me say this, my life is extremely better than a year ago.  As a matter fact it is nothing short of a miracle, so much so, that I am afraid of the future.

Not only am I afraid of the future, I am afraid of the past.  Sounds silly? I dont think so.


Last year, I was going thru seperation, childbirth, cheating spouse who had neglected his family due to his addictions, job loss, and just misery.

Fast Forward:

Today, I have relocated, nice prominent position, almost fully certified in NC with the business certifications Ive held in my former residence state, and moving into my own house next week.

To many, thats a major blessing.  To me, so much change has happened, my head is spinning.  Now although I am walking in miraculous victory, I must admit this change is very scary…

Change is inevitable.  So we press forward, AFRAID even.  Knowing that God has our back and He has all things under control….



Evening Edibles; Harsh Realities

Starting a new job was filled with excitement…  Then a harsh reality hit.  My research job can be a little draining yet rewarding.

2nd Harsh Reality:  Working a mental position still requires me to recharge, because when I come home I have to work with a special needs son.

3rd Harsh Reality: I have accepted the fact, I am in a season in my life where I am a single parent to 3 boys.

I realized all these realities tonight, while remaining grateful.  I am grateful for Gods strength to deal with these issues with a smile.

A failing marriage couldnt stop me…

Losing everything didnt stop me….

Realizing my worth thru God along with these obstacles only PUSHED ME INTO MY DESTINY!!!!!




Morning Minutes; Favor in the Workplace

Im doing an indept study on Ruth and Esther.  The Esther study I am currently on is a Beth Moore study.  In the book, she digs deeper into the knowledge and background of the scenes.   It has given me much insight on how to win favor.

I want favor not only amongst people, but in my workplace as well.  I think we all desire to be favored amongst not only staff but superiors.

Esther had favor because she was very attentive and followed directions.

Esther had still said nothing of her family or her people, as Mordecai had given her orders; for Esther did what Mordecai said, as when she was living with him. ( Esther 2:20 BBE)

It is very important  that you exhibit the following behaviors:

  1. Being respectful of authority.
  2. Listening very careful and ask questions for clarity, if needed.
  3. Following thru with instructions.
  4. Make sure you arent insylted by instructions, its only to better you.

When we refuse to respect and follow orders from authority, it reflects our relationship with God, who put thise figures in place.  Simply put, if we dont respect them, we are failing to respect God in some areas.  Yes…  HARD!!!

When the affair was investigated and found to be so, the men were both hanged on the gallows.  And it was recorded in the book of the chronicles in the presence of the king. ( Esther 2:23 ESV)

Mordeccai, doing his job deligently, warned the king, saved his life, and got no reward.    During these times, when an event like this happened, that person would´ve been honored and praised. Perhaps even promoted, but definitely gifted with  treasures. This is clearly an example of a man doing his best job, and getting overlooked.  This happens on the job to many of people I have spoken with.

Following someone elses authority and being obedient will win favor. It may not come from the present authority figure, but God seeks to reward the deligent, honorable, and obedient.

God is always right and fair.  He will not forget how much you love him.  He will remember how much you helped his people.  And you are still helping him. (Hebrews 6:10 Easy English)