I HATE U…..

I wanna move.  I want to go back to MD but not now…. I’m in a place where I’m uneasy at my current job because of corruption and I never really liked NC anyways but had to come to regroup after going thru a shady marriage.

While reading Proverbs I felt God say be patient, use good judgment, and discernment before acting.  You see He never said Dont JUMP and move but to get understanding, knowledge, and discernment before I go.

I believe this is strictly preparation advice.  I’m working on certifications but I need a job offer and a place before I just up and move back.  It would be nice to up and move like I did the first time but with 3 kids following me that would not use wisdom, discernment, nor would it be understanding

Sometimes in life a JUMP is required in order to be happy and fulfill your destiny.  Sometimes we are pushed off the cliff but this time I believe God will allow me to just JUMP…☺☺☺😍😍😍

Offerings…

Today I was moved to read John 6…  I try to constantly maintain a good  relationship with God. My morning times are times when its quiet and I can think and pour out my heart to Him and oftentimes he will direct me to scriptures.

John 6:9

“There’s a young boy here with five barley loaves and two fish.  But what good is that with this huge crowd?”

Life happens, so at times we only have a little time, a little energy, a little money, and a little sanity to give.  Not only to give to God but to give to people.  

I oftentimes get caught up with thinking I’m not spending enough time with God or people, but today God spoke give what little you have.  So even if I wake up in the morning late and my designated time with God is cut short still give the little.  Even if its a simple text to see if people are alright still do it.  And even if its my last dime but my neighbor needs it still give it.  You see God is a God of multiplying.  The little we give He will multiply times 10.  Just like the little 2 fish the boy gave God was able to feed thousands.

So let’s continue to give people even if we think its little God can and still does use this…..

Morning Minutes; People Pleasing

I think wanting to be accepted is a part of every humans DNA.  We desire to be loved and be a part of a community.  The fact that we are actually designed for each other is a good thing but when we shift that desire to look for the validation of others thats where the trouble lies.

This validation syndrome (I think I made up a disease lol) is very toxic.  I doubt we will ever live up to the expectations of some people in our lives.  To this day I still feel like I’ve let others down.

This morning while reading in Corinthians, Paul states how he doesn’t care how he is evaluated by people & human authority.  He then goes on to say I don’t even trust what I think of myself at this point because just because I have a clear conscience doesn’t mean I’m right.  His goal was to please the Lord.

While reading and meditating I thought, I want to get to that point.  I want to get to a point where nothing even matters.  Where my mind is fixed only on pleasing God and what He thinks about me.

So how do we get to that point?  We see exactly what God thinks of us.  What does God think of me?

To be continued…..

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME…… LOL

First of all to all my followers and the WordPress community SORRY…  I haven’t really been taking this blogging thing seriously and honestly as my outlet, I have suffered.  I believe in a community where we build each other and show love and WordPress has given me that.

So…….  I got officially divorced 2 weeks ago.  Now, to those who have been following me, yall know that I advocated for making a marriage work & believed God would restore my marriage.  However, something’s aren’t worth restoring.  After much prayer and thought, I realized both me and my ex husband had broken the marriage vows a long time ago in whatever ways, and God wanted better for me because this marriage wasn’t in His plans it was mines….

Now this article is just a quick introduction on what will be many countless attempts to save myself the trouble of marrying again in vain and trusting God in my everyday life.  Yes this will be my journey of dating, waiting (remaining abstinent), and just growing as an individual.  I don’t have everything planned out and really don’t know where God has me going BUT I am trusting Him more and more daily, as He has my best interest at Heart.

 

WELCOME TO TO THE NEXT CHAPTER… MY LIFE AFTER DIVORCE AND THE WAIT GAME…😂😂😂😂😂

Morning Minutes; Seasons

This morning on the way to work I noticed a swift change in the seasons.  This made me think of the seasons of life and I wanted to probe a question: Which season are you in?

This season in my life Im mourning and healing alot.  As I celebrated my 2nd Anniversary, reality hit me that although married 2 years I have been single just the same.  I also realized Ive lost alot and succumb to alot during the last 2 years.

It wasnt until I submitted to the process and aLlowed God to enter into the season to heal me and restore that I actually knew what it meant and felt what it meant to let go.

Leting go is releasing the need to control and allowing yourself to feel the pain.  This season holds alot of tears, fears, and anger.  But most importantly, this season holds healing and change, both internally and externally.

So as I walk thru this season, taking my time not to rush it, I allow myself to feel.  This means you may see me crying in the grocery store or laughing hysterically for no reason that the eyes can see.  This doesnt mean im crazy this is just me allowing God and my soul to simply be….

I want to encourage others to join the healing bandwagon and I want to discourage some to not judge.

You may not understand the process but everything is working out for our good…

HAPPY WEDNESDAY GOOD PEOPLE..

Morning Minutes; Power

During my morning meditation, God revealed to me about my power.  That word power spoke to me in every scripture I read.  God began to reveal His wisdom and I began to see that I had so much power.  The Holy Spirit, God Himself lives in us.  His life giving, life changing, raising from the dead spirit, lives in you and I.

The problem was I wasnt operating in that spirit.  You see I have the power to speak to mountains and they have to move.  I have power to speak to that disease, sickness, and whatever spirit that controls our sinful nature and IT HAS TO FLEE….

ALL WHO HAVE BEEN GIVEN THE POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT HAVE THIS AUTHORITY…

I dont know where the signals got crossed or where I forgot but today this was a reminder from God.  Use that power and by the name of Jesus those demons have to flee….

HAPPY TUESDAY PEOPLE 😘😘😘😘😘

Midnight Healing

Letting go is expressing my feelings it is allowing myself to feel.  Not pushing these emotions back.  It is allowing an outpour to my Father, knowing He is rubbing my back as I speak to Him amd allow my tears to flow…  ITS NOT ABOUT ME ITS ABOUT THE CHANGE BROUGHT IN ME.

ITS NOT ABOUT MY HUSBAND ITS ABOUT WHO I WAS CREATED TO BE….

I NOW UNDERSTAND WHAT GOD MEANT WHEN HE WHISPERED IN MY EAR CHANGE…

THE CHANGE IS FOR THE BETTER NEW ME.

For some reason I felt the urge to take a year off from men and devote it to my Father.  It wasnt until today that I finally realized He put that desire in me to do some work in me and thru me….

Evening Edibles; Healing

Afraid to let go BUT CAN NO LONGER HOLD ON.  HEALING COMES WHEN WE LET GO.  SO LORD I ASK THAT U PROTECT ME, HEAL ME, GUIDE ME, AND COMFORT ME… AS I LET GO….

Day 1 of letting go…. Letting go of the past, the future, and all the other Kelly thoughts as I rest, observe, and get permission from God to enjoy my life and live it His way….

Afternoon Appetizer; Mental Torment

And set your minds and keep them set on what is above (the higher things), not on the things that are on earth. (Colossians 3:2 AMP)

This morning, along with other days, I have been hit with the plague of mental torment.  I have allowed the devil to play thoughts, scenes, and etc in my mind, that at times caused me to be emotionally drained and sprained.

From the fear of losing my newfound job, to my husbands betrayal and his mistress.

These tactics are satans tricks for discouragement.  He uses these not only to distract us but to make us less useful and resourceful.  These times he binds our mines with foolishness can be used for our production of services to and for God.

In other words, he wants to keep us from our destiny.

 I am the first to admit that dealing with certain circumstances, its hard not to think about them, and even harder not to talk about them.  I want to encourage you because there is hope.

I have recieved alot of healing from this bondage by simply replacing my thought process with something else Godly or positive.  You see, its  not enough to just cast the thought down, you have to replace it.  Because if the devil can get a grip on your mind, the rest will follow.  I havent done my affirmations in days but this skill helps me replace those damaging thoughts.  Damaging to me and my health and ultimately, my healing process.

I believe, if we tell people how not to think of something, AND how to replace those thoughts more change will occur.  Many times people have told me dont think like that or talk  like that.  But never shared with me exactly what to do in order to get those thoughts out of my mind permanently.

There is a war going on overr your mind.  The mind and tongue are very powerful tools because where ever they go the rest will follow.

HAPPY WEDNESDAY YOU GUYS

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Morning Minutes; Favor in the Workplace

Im doing an indept study on Ruth and Esther.  The Esther study I am currently on is a Beth Moore study.  In the book, she digs deeper into the knowledge and background of the scenes.   It has given me much insight on how to win favor.

I want favor not only amongst people, but in my workplace as well.  I think we all desire to be favored amongst not only staff but superiors.

Esther had favor because she was very attentive and followed directions.

Esther had still said nothing of her family or her people, as Mordecai had given her orders; for Esther did what Mordecai said, as when she was living with him. ( Esther 2:20 BBE)

It is very important  that you exhibit the following behaviors:

1. Being respectful of authority.
2. Listening very careful and ask questions for clarity, if needed.
3. Following thru with instructions.
4. Make sure you arent insylted by instructions, its only to better you.

When we refuse to respect and follow orders from authority, it reflects our relationship with God, who put thise figures in place.  Simply put, if we dont respect them, we are failing to respect God in some areas.  Yes…  HARD!!!

When the affair was investigated and found to be so, the men were both hanged on the gallows.  And it was recorded in the book of the chronicles in the presence of the king. ( Esther 2:23 ESV)

Mordeccai, doing his job deligently, warned the king, saved his life, and got no reward.    During these times, when an event like this happened, that person would´ve been honored and praised. Perhaps even promoted, but definitely gifted with  treasures. This is clearly an example of a man doing his best job, and getting overlooked.  This happens on the job to many of people I have spoken with.

Following someone elses authority and being obedient will win favor. It may not come from the present authority figure, but God seeks to reward the deligent, honorable, and obedient.

God is always right and fair.  He will not forget how much you love him.  He will remember how much you helped his people.  And you are still helping him. (Hebrews 6:10 Easy English)

HAPPY THURSDAY GOOD PEOPLE

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